The beginning of our NICU journey

On April 21 2015 our baby Manning Christopher Hoyt was born, like i wrote on my previous post....

After we went and saw Manning for the first time , they took me to the room and i just remember being so sleepy, it was because the pain medicines  and also the magnesium they put me during the surgery to help Manning's brain...

I remember falling sleep and feeling that was still pregnant and that everything was just a nightmare... But i woke up around 2 am and i realize it was real... i was not pregnant anymore our little Manning was in the NICU fighting for his life...

After i woke up at 2 am i spent the rest of the night just praying for our little baby... I was so scared to hear the phone ring because they told us that they NICU will call only when there is BAD news...
Around 6:30 am the phone ringed!!! I was so terrified i just told Chris to answer it, he did and i was just looking at him to see his reaction... He was normal and then he hung up... I asked him what they called , Chris told me they were asking for our permission to put a picc line to Manning..

picc line: it is a form of intravenous access that can be used for a prolonged period of time...

After the call Chris left to visit Manning and i was just resting for the surgery.. Later that they i went and visit him too, he was so little.. He was just sleeping really calm and we changed his diaper  and cleaned his mouth.. I was happy to see my baby but at the same time worried about him...

My recovery from the C section was fast But painful... The second day after the C section the Nurse forgot to give me the pain medicine the whole night.. I woke up around 7 and i needed to go to the bathroom so bad... When i tried to get up i felt that i couldn't move i had so much pain even breathing was painful.. But still i kept trying to get up.. I was so hard and painful.. I woke up chris and told him i needed help, i started crying because it was so painful... He helped me to seat up and when i seat up my whole body started shaking and i started to feeling so cold.. It was Crazy...

The 3rd day was kinda normal i didn't had pain and i went to see Manning, he had the lights because he was getting so yellow , i stayed there for a few hours then we went back to the room, around 9 i decided to go walking to see manning and take some milk.. I told Chris i was going to go and he could just get there later. It took me a while to get there ... I was walking so slow.
i got there and he still had the lights , he was not happy about it... I was just looking at him when i heard the monitor going off, i looked to the monitor and it had red lights and Manning's heart was drooping more and more and it was not coming back ... I was terrified and my reaction was to run... I totally forgot about my incision... I ran to the room crying , and told Chris to go and see what was happening... I was so scared.. Chris went and after a few minutes he called me and told me that Manning was fine and that the nurse told him it was normal on preemies... 

That night i realize the emotional roller coaster we were in....

The next day Manning  was stable , i got discharged that day and we knew the next weeks our months were going to be hard... But we knew that having faith and prying was the key to keep going.

Manning second day of life,

first Family picture... excuse my face :)

with the lights 

Saying Bye the day we got Discharged 

Welcome to the World Manning... ( birth story)

After being on bed rest for almost 2 weeks at the hospital , On April 21 morning i woke up so energetic and happy, i took off the hospital gown , i took a shower and i did my make up.... early that morning my husband took my phone because we were going to get new phones that day, so i was without phone i only had my iPad with me and i was using the hospital WiFi, around 4:30 Pm they brought me my dinner, it was good :) salmon my favorite , i ate and around 5 i had to go to the bathroom, when i was sitting in there i felt that something was wrong, so i called the nurse and she came right away... i told her i was feeling something weir coming out.....
she called the Dr on call that day... the doctor came and she checked me and she started calling a lot of people and nurses, i started asking what is happening, the doctor said the baby is coming, but we have to go and do an ultrasound to see the position of the baby, i was so scared and the WORST THING was that i did no had my cellphone, how i was going to tell Chis that i was having the baby, and i started crying and crying , the nurse that was taking care of me that day held my hand and she asked me why i was crying, i told her i didn't had a cellphone to call my husband and family and that i didn't wanted to be alone while having the baby...
 she borrow me her cellphone and i called Chris , and i just told her the baby is coming , please hurry up... they took me on the elevator to the labor and delivery,and they did the ultrasound, the doctor looked at me and said we are going to do an emergency C section right know , she brought me some papers i had to sign , and then they just took my pants and started preparing me for the surgery i started crying more and more, i just wanted my husband Chris to be there, i was so scared and worried for the baby... the anesthesiologist was so nice to me he was holding my hand and wiping my tears , and then i hear Chris, and i saw him coming in dressing like a Dr ...  they just waited for Chris to sit up and they started opening me... it was so fast that they didn't even put a gown on me, i had my C section with my shirt and bra.... CRAZY...

while they were doing the surgery Chris was holding my hand so tight and i was just looking to the lick in the sealing of the room, thinking about my baby, about how much i loved him and just prying for him, i was so scared, i wanted him to survive,... it was so hard for me in that moment...

then the Dr told Chris to get up because they were going to pull the baby out, and that was when i hear the mos sweet cry ever....

Manning Christopher Hoyt was born at 28 weeks of gestation  on APRIL 21 AT 6:22 PM  his birth weight was 2 pounds 9 oz and the was 14 inches long.... i didn't see him because they passed him to the NICU right away , it was a wonderful feeling my baby was here.....


they took me to a room after the surgery, i was so thirsty,but they told me i could not drink anything for a while, i was sooooooo HIGH for all the pain drugs i don't even remember a lot of things ...

i just remember they came around 7 pm to take to see Manning for the first time , they took me on the hospital bed because i was not able to walk,

we got there to the NICU and i saw my little baby, i was so scared to see him, i wanted him to be OK, he was there he was doing OK he only had oxygen they did not put him on a ventilator at all, and he was opening his Eyes , i wonder what he was thinking lol... maybe he was saying OH man i was so comfy on my mommy's belly ...

what a great FEELING... that was the first day of our journey , i was so scared but the love i felt when i saw my baby for the first time has been the best thing in my life.

Bed Rest!!!

so after being a day at the hospital , the doctors  sent me home and they put me on bed rest at home
it was kinda hard for me , i had to leave my job and just stay at home, but i wanted my baby to be safe...

i started feeling really bad about everything, i wanted to go to work, i wanted my baby to be safe ,
i wanted to keep pregnant longer, i had so many plans for this pregnancy, and i was feeling that everything was just getting worst and worst ,

every night i cried feeling so scared, i wanted to keep my baby longer i wanted him to be safe,

the doctor told me he was going to see me every week , the first to weeks went well , then he told me to come see him every 2 weeks,  so on April 16 i went to my normal check up i was feeling great that morning , just a little bit worried because the day before i was feeling some pain on my lower back,

so i came to the doctor end he was out of town , the nurse told me other doctor was going to check me that they , i went to the room , they did an ultrasound the baby  was moving so much :)

when the nurse was done with the ultrasound i told her about the pain i was feeling the day before, she told me she will tell the doctor, the doctor came and the nurse told her about my pain,
the doctor right away checked my cervix , and he told me that i was dilated to 3 and that they were going to send me to labor and delivery, i was so sacred i called Chris and i told him they were going to leave me at the hospital, he told me he was going to get to the hospital as soon as possible,

they took me to the room and put me an IV just in case i was going to have the baby that day
Chris came and we were just waiting and waiting on that room , the doctor came around 11:00 pm and told me they were going to make a decision....

they came back that morning ... like 5 doctors, they told me that the decision was to keep me at the hospital on bed rest until the baby was born, Chris and i agreed to that , so the took me to the second floor of the hospital, they told us to bring our staff because probably our stay was going to be long ....

we were a little bit scared but we felt good because we were at the bet place,  the nurses were nice and i was just laying on bed, that made me feel safe i knew that i was doing the right thing to keep my baby in longer... and that is how our bed rest at the hospital started...

Incompetent cervix

In the previous post I told the story about how I find out I was pregnant,  my husband and I were so happy we had a wonderful Christmas, on January we found out we were having a baby Boy,   on February 13 2015 was the first time I felt him MOVING,  I was so excited,  my belly kept growing and I was excited about being pregnant because I didn't had any morning sickness and I was telling every one who easy it was for me, on March 21 2015 , we went to dinner with some friends,  like we usually do on Fridays , we had dinner and then we went to their house,  my husband was playing Xbox with our friend husband,  and I was just talking to her about my pregnancy,  I was 23 weeks 3 days on that day, I went to the bathroom and I saw that I was bleeding a little bit, I got so scared,  I went out and I told my husband that we had to go to the ER ASAP, my husband was driving so fast, and we both didn't talk on the way there, I guess we both were scared,  we went to Alta view hospital in sandy Utah,  that is were my OB was,  we got to the ER front desk and told them what was happening,  they took me to the women's center building and they put me on a room on labor and delivery,  the nurse told me they were going to monitor me and the baby,  after asking me many queations the nurse told us we could rest and the doctor would come and see me later, she turned off the lights, my husband just lay down on the couch,  and I was there on the bed just wondering what was happening,  I didn't wanted to go into labor,  my Baby was not even 24 weeks , I was so scared.
Around 2:00 am the nurse came back and she told me they needed to do an ultrasound,  we went and they Did the ultrasound,  we came back to the room and again,  the nurse told us we could rest,  around 3 am, the nurse came back, she turned on the lights and she sat next to my husband,  her face was not happy at all, she told us that my cervix was thing and an specialist was going to come at 6 am to check me and see if I would need to have a surgery...  and then after saying That she left,
I started crying and I was so scared,  my husband gave me a hug and told me that everything was going to be OK, I told him to rest and I was going to try to sleep a little bit, but it was impossible, 
In that moment I started thinking and thinking,  my mom had the same problem when she was pregnant,  and to be able to have my brother and I,  she had to have surgery,  I was in shock,  my mom always told me to be careful with that, and what made me more sad was that I told my OB about my mother situation and I told him he,should check me, but he didn't,  he always said I was fine... I was so mad at my OB.
I started texting my mom and tell her everything,  also my brother, 
Around 6:10 am the specialist came and he checked me, he confirmed that I have INOMPETENT CERVIX. And I need the to have the surgery ASAP That way I could keep my pregnancy , but they would had to transfer me to another hospital,  the IMC in Murray Utah,  they called an ambulance and like 10 minutes after the guys from the ambulance were picking me up, they put me on the ambulance , I remember it was a beautiful morning,  and I just kept thinking how everything can change in your life in a minute....
We got to the IMC, they put me in room 7 on labor and delivery room, the nurse came and and she said that I was not able to eat because I was going to have a surgery,  she asked me again a lot of Questions and she put me an IV,  she said 2 doctor were going to come and check me,

I don't know what time it was when the 2 doctor came, they checked my cervix and, the sat and told me they were going to make decision on what to do with me, because there was a risk of breaking my water if they Did the surgery,  they said they will come with an answer like in an hour and they left.

The nurse came back and told us,  a doctor from the NICU was going to come and explain to us what was going to happen if during the surgery my water breaks and I have to had the Baby,
The doctor from the NICU came,  he told us that baby was 23 weeks 4 days, and the chance of survival was low, they told us that if he was born we would have to make the desition to keep him or to let him go, he said that if we decided to keep him the baby would have many complications,  and he may just live a couple of days,  he said more but I don't remember,  and then he left.

I started crying and crying,  I love my baby I wanted him to be safe, it was so hard, my husband came to my bed and he hold my hand and He started crying too, he told me that our son was an special spirit and maybe his purpose was to come to earth for a little bit and then go back to our heavenly father,  we both cry so much,  and we made our desition... 

I got so tired after that,  I was trying to fall sleep,  but I Could hear my husband crying,  I'm so lucky to have Chris as my husband,  he is my rock and the love of my life and in that moment I knew that  being together in hard times was a great experience because I know we can survived to hard times if we are together...

Like an hour after like 5 doctor came, they told me that they decied to not to do the surgery,  they put me on bed rest at home and with medications,

We felt so good, that was an opportunity to keep baby longer and as they said everyday was a bleeding ...

I was excited to do everything to keep my baby inside as long as possible,  we went home that as afternoon.

The Surprise!!!!

So, on December 31 2013, we decided to try and get pregnant, i though it was going to be easy , and around feb i will be pregnant.....

BUT , it was not the case, we tried and tried for months and nothing, i was not getting pregnant, around august i started to get worried, thinking that i may have something on my body and for that reason i was not getting pregnant,

so arround the first week of october i found a doctor, and OB and i made an appointment on October 21 2014.

My husband was traveling on the date of my appointment, so i went by myself, i was pretty scared because was the first time in my life going to an OB , but it went well, i told the doctor what was happening, and he told me that maybe i was not ovulating, BUT he wanted to wait until my next period on November 2014  to give me some medicine, ( i forgot the name) That way the medicine will help me to ovulate and get pregnant, when he said that, i got Hope , and i was pretty excited, the first time in my life that i was excited for my period to come....

sooo November came. and i was so excited, my period was supposed to come around November 5th, so arround the 3rd i started to feel the symptoms i always get before my period, but it did not came on the 5th, it did not came on the 10th, and i was mad because my body had done the same thing before , one time my period was late for 15 days, so for sure the same thing was happening, the only thing i wanted was my period to come , that way the doctor would help me to get pregnant,

Around November 18 my period was still late but i was 100% sure my body was playing games, i started to get sick, it was like a cold or flu, but i was feeling horrible, in that time my husband was traveling AGAIN, he was on Texas, i started feeling so sick around November 21st but for some reason i decided to don't take medicine because i was late, and YOU NEVER KNOW

BUT on November 23rd, i was so sick that i decide to take a pregnancy test, because i felt sooooo sick i wanted to know if i was pregnant or not, and if i was not that way i could take some medicines for that cold that was killing me...

So that morning of November 23rd 2014, it was beautiful, there was a lil bit of snow on the ground, i went to church with my sisters in law, our church was at 11:00 Am, and we came back home at 12:00 pm , the first thing i did was going to the bathroom and i had a pregnancy test there, i hold it on my hands like 5 minutes, and then i took a deep breath , and i finally opened it and took the test, and i just put it on the sink and i waited with my eyes close, in that moment i was thinking... well if is negative is not the first time... the doctor will help me.... so after 5 min i opened my ayes and i graved the test and... BOOM it said PREGNANT......... that feeling on my chest of happiness, my whole body started shaking and i took a pic with my phone and i sent it to my husband... then my mom haha...

here is the picture i sent to them. :)

But my husbad asked me to take more tests lol, poor guy i dont even know what he was thinking he was in texas by himself lol, so i went to the store and i graved a few more :)

and all of them, were POSITIVE, i was pregnant for the first time in my life, and i didn't even had to take the medicine, i felt so happy and bless, i knew miracles are possible and i felt so grateful with God, a lil angel was growing inside of me :) 

we went to our first Dr appointment on December 16 2014, the doctor confirmed i was pregnant and he gave us a due date :) July 14 2015, my husband and i felt so happy and excited for this new part in our life, baby hoyt.

WHAT A GREAT EARLY CHRISTMAS GIFT FOR US :)

We are the Hoyt's

Mr Hoyt "Chris" and i "Laura" have been married for 2 years 9 months, we met online back on 2011, we dated for a year and we got married on Jun 7 2012

I'm from Honduras central america, we got married in my city Tegucigalpa , and because of my visa we were apart the first 7 months of our marriage, i finally came to the States on February 9 2013. and i have been here since then.

About me:

i love Art i love Music, Makeup , Fashion, Traveling , i'm a romantic person and a dreamer with a huge imagination, i have always loved to write my feelings and also a lil bit of poetry , i Love my husband chris more than words, i love family , ( m mom , my brother and my grandma)  with all i have,  hmmm what else i can say about me? i love cleaning haha and i get pretty stress about it :) i love to work hard and always give the best i can.


About Mr Hoyt:

He is the love of my life, he is a hard worker, always kind and nice with everyone, always willing to help, he loves sports , and cars, he loves his family so much and i love how close he is to them, also he loves his friends as family, he likes to travel, he loves chocolate and he loves games haha :) he is always positive no matter what, and he always makes me feel safe .

and that is a little bit of who we are......

We are a normal married couple, and i decide to write about or life, just because

Life is Great.